بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Time & Patience. Many of us have forgotten the importance of these 2 in our lives. We have been so caught up with commitments and responsibilities till we have failed to appreciate time, and an important virtue; patience.

I have been so busy; with just everything. I have forgotten to take even a second of my life to just stop doing things, sit down, stare at the clouds and thank Allah for everything. Basically, it all begins from Him. Without Him, the world will not even be making its routine of rounds and the Sun would not probably have set today.

I am specially thankful today, because the answer is almost there. He sent me people to guide and show me that there is indeed hope at the end of the tunnel. Its not all dark and lonely afterall. All I have to do now is to sustain my faith and my believe, that I am not merely seeking for knowledge without understanding and without believing its real truth and giving the rightful just to it.

Truth needs to be seek cautiously, constantly and critically. How can you claim its the truth when your heart fills with the desire to protest, detest and debate? 

I’ve learnt a beautiful lesson from this; 
Truth, Religion, Seeking for God’s Guidance- its not about proving who is right and who is wrong, what is haraam and what is halal. It is not you who decide it.

 ”Don’t fear the people; fear Allah swt. Da’wah requires sacrifice and negation of all ego and arrogance. Humility, humility, humility.”

-Islamic Thoughts

Wallahualam.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

“Ilmu menjadikan manusia itu semakin tunduk, bukannya untuk menang berdebat semata-mata.”

-IslamSpeaks 

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

4 days away from them, makes me miss them a little. Glad to be back in Sg. Mum starts complaining to me of her stories with the kids at work and Dad still treating me like a princess, fetching me whenever I’m tired and sending me to places all over Sg (sigh, why am I taking my own sweet time to pass my license?).

At the end of the day, I know I have no one else, for Allah granted me such wonderful parents. Alhamdulillah.

Love, in whatever form it may be, should not compete with the Ultimate Love. For it is ever ever ever lasting.

Wallahualam.

“Be the flower that gives a sweet fragrance to even the hand that crushes it”

-Imam Ali r.a.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Wow, miss this space so much. Feels like I’ve not written an entry (either here or my diary) for a very very long time. But, Alhamdulillah. Its really a blessing in disguise, for I see truth in those shades of light; though just a faint of light, I believe its like a door, that was opened for me way before this, just that I couldn’t bring my feet to step into that door.

Sometimes I really wonder, why am I the one?
Why am I the one that Allah pick, why did He pick me up? Why not my other friends? Why not the other girls? Why, why me?

It feels like as I am writing this, I am hitting hard on my keyboard. Full with angst, full with emotions.

I could still be the same girl I was 3 years back then.
Dyed hair, multiple ear holes, mouth spitting vulgar, bitchy and flirtatious.

I was, indeed.

But that dream. That dream just made me into a completely different person than I was before this. Though some of its characteristics remain as it is in me today, I totally did not expect to be like this at this age, back then when I was 17.

Proven that Allah azza wa jalla is indeed all Knowing, all Forgiving & all Merciful.

He picked me up, back then, when I was so filthy & dirty and put me in a spot, to choose the right path. The thirst to seek for His truth was beyond my expectation. I grew to yearn more of it. Truth, and His love were all that I ever seek for.

And now today, I don’t know where He has put me. A global leading varsity, with the hope burning each and everyday; truth to be told, truth to be heard. But I landed upon a position where I am labelled as the misleading one, the wrong one, the extreme one?

No, oh no, I don’t want to be back there again. I don’t want to be where it all began. With lack of faith, lack of believe that He exists and that the Hereafter is everlasting. I still want to be here, caressed by His love and Guidance.

I take this as a test, a challenge, oh Allah. For that You have shown me the light, and for that I thank you for the wonderful blessings that has been bestowed upon me.

My loving parents and family members, for believing, trusting and who has been and will always be there to provide me with a shoulder to cry on.
My beautiful girls, for listening to me, even when I cry, even when you cannot fathom a single of it, thank you. For the hugs and advises.

To you, who attacked, labelled and judged me as you wish, thank you for teaching me, a lesson that I could have never learnt in any way better than this.

I shall sleep tonight, with hopes that tomorrow will be a better and a more beautiful day, shall forgive you, for being someone that I used to have high respect for. Now that this happened, perhaps, Allah has His own reasons for doing so.

Allahu mustaan.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Woke up in the morning, feeling completely energized! On the list-to-do:

1) Clean my room
2) Do laundry
3) Diary Entry
4) Tumblr
5) Discuss w mum & dad on KL Immersion Trip
6) Criticism MS2212 Term Essay

Did 1-5 happily, alhamdulillah (not the essay tho, ah, tell me about it -.-) 

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Speaking of which, Zaza and I have been talking about marriage (eversince starting of this sem) but the conversation on Friday night was the most meaningful one I guess. Not just about marriage; but about life, family, Allah, hijab and friends. Just everything.
Especially since one of our lecture mates just got married today (she’s our age) and we’re so happy for her. InsyaAllah may their marriage lasts till Jannah, ameen ;)

Guess its normal, as we grow older, we start talking about life. Those conversations always make me feel more, human… Not the love movies, those tv shows, with good-looking heroes that will just sweep you off your feet instantly. No more. I wish it exists, but the fact is, it doesn’t.

Obviously the issue of marriage is not on my list any sooner. Remember, Mendaki, oh yes, the deed? Hahaha I can’t get married throughout my university life. Thanks kakak, for reminding. 
Mr S did ask for my hand in marriage, but nope, I have to turn it down. First, I am not ready (will never be until I meet the right man). Mr S is a scary guy that I don’t even know that well and he wants to get married to me? Okay fine he asked it in-the-so-called halal way but it does freak me outzxsz. Been 3 years but I don’t have feelings for him. We’re just, acquaintances not even friends. Secondly, my parents are not in favor of the guy (they think he’s a psycho - I thought so too hehehe) and lastly, Mendaki babe, Mendaki!

Zaza & I came to a conclusion perhaps Hid will be the first to wed and we’ll be her bridesmaids of course! Wee. Thats gonna be interesting whoop whoop! *dancing around*

The 3 of us always make plans for the future. Despite declaring different majors next Sem, I do hope we’re gonna stay like how it has always been. Chit-chatting and laughing along the walkways, lecture discussions over lunch and birthday dinners! (oh and the shopping part after exams; am so looking forward to it)

Ah, shall dedicate a whole post about them the next time, cos right now, I need to concentrate on my final essay and yes, EXAMS. The week after next! Zomg. 

Alright. Gonna share pichas of cute cute cute babies again! Weird craze, I know :)

InsyaAllah insyaAllah

:)

Warmest Salaam 

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Tonight, we are young.
So let’s set the world on fire.
We can burn brighter
Than the Sun 

     (Photos from Naw5a)

I don’t know if I have mentioned this before but of all the things that I look forward to in marriage in actually having my own juniors! Can you imagine them? Hehehe. A few of my friends have been telling me they do wonder what kind of mum I’ll end up being. Hahaha!

Tell me about it, I cannot imagine raising my own kids. But when it beckons, I’ll guess I’ll automatically slip into that role. Every girl would do so. You will never be ready, until you face it yourself.

I know this sounds weird. Girls around me are discussing about their future spouses or the struggle in searching for the other half. Well, I do think about it at times, but I guess I am comfortable with the life I am living now, I don’t think finding for him is something that is currently on my mind. Instead, I am worried about being myself. Being a wife, being a mum. Being a loving daughter itself has been sucha challenge to me. What more a wife or a mum. The responsibilities are really heavy. I guess its time for me to learn as much as I can while I am still young. I have dreams. I don’t want to waste my youth just like that, without preparing for adulthood.

I want to be a faithful wife. I want to be a responsible mother. I want to raise my kids like how my mum did. I want a husband who protects me and my children like how my dad is. I want to be the first teacher for my kids. I want them to run to me when they cry. I want them to hug me when I am scared. I want them to laugh with me when they’re happy. 
I just want to be young~ by being the most happiest woman on Earth.

“Tuliskan rancanganmu dengan pensil kemudian serahkan pemadamnya kepada Allah swt. Izinkan Allah untuk memadam bahagian yang bukan ditakdirkan untukmu dan biarkan Allah menggantikannya dengan rancangan yang lebih baik. 
Kerana Allah lebih mengetahui apa yang baik untuk kita.

Yang lebih baik untuk kita, mungkin bukan seperti yang manusia sangka. Selalu ada hikmah di sebalik rancangan yang Allah siapkan khas untuk kita, hambaNya yang beriman.”

(Al-Hikmah)

Wallahualam.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

“If you wish to see what the future hold, then behold the youth of today for they are the faces of tomorrow.” 

-Imam Al-Ghazali

If you asked me what have I learnt from Night Cycling 2012, its this. This picture just defines it. 
For Allah swt. For the ummah.

So thankful as I was destined to be a part of this.

As I did my sujud, I expressed the desires of my heart and gratitude for all of the blessings He has given me. May He grant this small prayer of mine.

A beautiful future~ Now I leave everything for Him to decide for me.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Have you received something wonderful that you didn’t even ask for, that’s Allah! He knows the desire of your heart❤

Via Syukran

MasyaAllah, indeed He knows the desire of my heart. Alhamdulillah. Even if its not going to happen, I know You set aside the best for me and I shall patiently hope for it. You know it best. Thank you Allah. Really, thank you.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

“Having a good husband does not determine your place in Jannah. Asiah was promised the paradise when her husband was Firaun. Its you. Nobody else.”

-Ustazah Nazeerah